面具后的秘密...

OMG...BEEN SICK FOR MORE THEN A WEEK!!!

2010-04-02T02:55:00.000-04:00

I have forgot when I started to get sick, just know that it was sometime last week. If i remember correctly the beginning of the week nice a warm, and then rains and even snow came too. I think that it was the transition of being cold to warm to cold that made me sick.

Symptoms:
95% Coughing
2.5% Cold
2.5% Fever
Unknown % Headache

For the past week I haven't gotten a single night of good sleep. I would only say about 3-4 hours of closed eyes. The coughing would be keeping me up all throughout the night. I remember one night i went to be at 11 pm, and planned to get up at 6 am to finish up an assignment that was due at 10 am. So I went to bed and thought I could get some sleep, but I was so wrong. Every 15 minutes to 30 minutes I would feel the urge to cough, and not just once, but it would be 3-4 times. That went on for the entire time that I was in my bed. And I can even counting the hours going by each time the urge to cough came. 12am, 1am, 2am, 3am, 4am, 5am... And then 5:54 am that's when I got up because I set my cellphone and alarm clock to go off at 6 am. So I got up and stopped them. So went into the bathroom and washed up and headed down stair to finish the assignment. And I was surprise to see that my brother is still sitting at his computer... This type of sleep went on for couple days.

Those couple day I didn't take much medicine because I thought it would go away soon enough. I think I started to take medicine on Sunday.
What I took:
Cold Medicine: 3 times a day, 2-3 tablets each time
Cough Medicine: 3 times a day, 4-6 tablets each time
Honey Pei Pa Koa (The Chinese Buckley's): This one tastes good and work ok

The cough medicine really surprised me at first. It was a brand new bottle to begin with, 3 times a day, 4-6 tablets each time. 3 x 6 = 18. Here is the funny thing, the bottle only contains 30 tablets... So that means it wouldn't last 2 days if I ate 6 each time. So I only took 4 each time. And they are not just those tiny ones, they are those gel cap ones.

Since Sunday I have been sleeping in the living room. This is because that my mother said my coughing are keeping her up at night and that she is getting headache because lacking in sleep. So I slept in my living room for the past three days. But I found out that 1) I cough less, maybe because the medicine are working, 2) I fall asleep much easier on the couch. Even though my brother and my dad would be in the living room, one watching TV and one on his computer, but I can still fall asleep. WEIRD

So it has been 1 week and 2 days. Felling much better, cold gone, little bit of headache still around. The coughing is almost clearing up. Just 1 or 2 more days and I should be back to 100%. Lets hope the weather stays above 15 from now on.

Weird how this blog is about me being sick after I haven't written for so long. Well to answer my own question, it because there is nothing new or exciting happening in my life right now. I wish something would new would suddenly show up, whatever it is at least there would be something to do.

School... Haven't been to that place for about two weeks. I am still handing in my assignments, I just don't feel like going to class. Spending 2-4 hours on the TTC just to listen to the prof talk Power Point is so pointless especially when there isn't even an exam for that class.

Well, w/e.

Life as of Now

2010-01-18T10:24:00.000-05:00

"Are you happy with your current life?"

I would say that I am happy with my life, but there are couple things that can be better.

As of now, I am in the last semester of my program. But I won't be graduating this year because I am still missing two credits and also the stupid COOPS that I was suppose to do a year ago. But I don't care because I plan to get the COOPS done during this summer (Hopefully I can get a job or two) while taking two classes. This is like my best option as of now. Since I won't be able to get enough hours even if I get a job now. And that is the reason I didn't want to take two more courses this semester (Don't want 7 courses...) But everything with school is fine.

Outside of school. Weekdays would be either at school or at home. Both is pretty boring. Out of the 7 day of the week, I am only looking forward to two of them, Tuesday and Saturday. On Tuesday night, I would be out play badminton with Tony (As of now), more and welcome to come. Hopefully its and even number of people. That is the best because it is kinda weird to have like 5 or 7 people because one would be left out, or that there would be a 1 on 2 match. I don't mind a 1 on 2 match, but when there are like 5 people playing 2 on 2, then 1 would have to sit out. Unless we have enough court space to have a 1 on 1 and a 1 on 2. Then that is fine.

Saturday is my favourite day of the week. This is the day that I can expect to have more fun and just relax.
Things that can and could happen on a Saturday:

Badminton
Swimming
Hanging out with friends
Gaming with friends (DOTA)
Dinner with friends
Karaoke in the afternoon and or at night
Attend an over night birthday party or party

As you all have know, I had one of the best days every two weeks ago. Which it was funtastic. (Hm...is this really a word that I use. Think I heard Tony saying this before)

I think I might have just listed all the things I like doing. Hm...seems like I don't like doing many things.

Ways that My life could be better

Getting a job
Moving out of my parents' house
Getting a Girlfriend
Try other sports
Entering badminton tournaments
Eat more delicious food

School :(

2010-01-18T10:02:00.000-05:00

At the beginning of last semester, I have notice a change in myself. My will to go to school has be significant low. Actually my will to do anything has becoming lower compare to before.

I do blame this on last summer when I had almost 6 month of free times on my hand. And that was because i failed to find a summer job. In that 6 month, I have done nothing besides going to YMCA, hang out with friends, and that's pretty much it. It was fun when that happened because at that time there was no care for anything else, its like back when you were kids. Everyday just have fun, even at school.

Also I have been more and more procrastinating ever since high school. Well, I do procrastinating in high school as well. But now its more I would think. For assignments I usually leave them to the night before its due to finish it. Sometimes working for the entire night too. I do the same thing for projects too, I know its with other people and all, but I am usually the one to put it together, so doesn't change a thing for me. Now that I think about it, I only study at the night before an exam, or even worst at the morning before the exam. This is a habit that I have adopted since coming to school at George Brown. My first program (Hotel Management), the courses were extremely easy compare to what ACCI gives out. A funny thing I still remember from my first year was the math class that I had. In high school, I find math to be a bitch and hated it, but math related course were my strongest when I am in George Brown. O yeah the funny thing, the text book the math class were print outs, total about 100 pages. When I got it I started to flip through it. It was very easy. Every week in that math class, while the prof were teaching the chapters and while other were listening, I would be completing the exercise in the so call text book. I think I finished the entire text book in less then 3 day worth of class time.

Back in ACCI, I was an average student getting 70s. While in George Brown I am the top student getting 80s and 90s. With that, I have come to a conclusion that I don't have to tried very hard to get a decent grade. And with that in mind, that is probably the reason for becoming even more procrastinating. Also most of the so call assignment I can probably finish in a day or two.

After that first program, I continued onto a degree program. The courses in the program are a bit harder then the previous one, prof marks a a bit harder. But I am still in cruising mode, and still getting by pretty good. Now in my last semester, I just plan to get through it and be done with it.

超级好玩的一天

2010-01-10T00:45:00.003-05:00

A day like what I had today comes maybe once a year. For the entire day, each and every activities that I did are my favourites, or that I enjoy doing the most out of all.

There were couple stops for today.

Early in the morning...hm does 11 am count early. Well whatever, badminton was what I did for the first stop at 11. Played for two hours, had lunch with my friends, then head home and get ready for the next place.

Part two of this funtastic day was spent at Karaoke. We were there from 4 pm to around 7:30. Yeah, might be a little weird to sing K in the after noon. But it work out fine, it was WAY WAY WAY CHEAPER then at the usual time. Well, I would say its kinda weird because there wasn't any alcohol involve. But later on it was fine. This might be a first for me, sing a duet with a girl. That is because usually we get Jacky Leung to sing the female voice, which he does a really great job at it for some reason...:D. Sang couple of my favourite song from of course the AMAZING JAY CHOU. Also the duet with the girls was pretty good. I sang 珊瑚海 with one girl, and then 梁山伯与茱丽 with another. Both are now my all time loved duet songs.

Third stop were to enjoy a great Korean feast with my friends. Filled up with food. At first we were thinking of going back to continue the SING K MADNESS, but then we notice that it was Saturday today, so the cost for round two would be expensive. So we decide to go home.

Last stop of the night was tiring and refreshing at the same time, weird eh, that two opposite thing can happen in the same place. Two other friends and I went to work out, yep yep lifting some weights building some muscle. The other two need to lose weights. Then after an exhausting work out, we jump into the pool for a refreshing dip. We swam for like 15 minutes then we talked after while just laying back and relaxing in the water. After that we jumped into the jacuzzi to finish off the night.

The entire day has been enjoyable. Got to meet some new people, rock the world at Karaoke, dinner and then swimming. I wish everyday were like this. No school, no worries of money and what not. I really don't mind spending everyday like this. Hm...actually I might mind it, cause I will probably die in a week. Just looking at two hours of badminton, exhausting work outs and swimming, yup probably dead within a week or two. But I do wish that today can happen more through out the year.

Hm...speaking of 2010. What event or parties are there install for me...
Feb - Friend's sister's BDAY
April - Friend's Bday party
Summer - ...Usually I don't do much in the summer
My BDay - well I don't really celebrate my own Bday, not that I don't like it, I just see it as a normal day. If things happens on that day, then I'll enjoy it.
Christmas - Wow...already at Christmas. Christmas week parties (I hope so)

There might be more, but here are just the ones that are most likely to happen for the coming year.

AHHHHHHHH. Thinking that tomorrow will be back to the usual is making me sdsasdas :( can't even type SAD. HOW SAD AM I...

Life finally back on Track

2010-01-08T15:24:00.002-05:00

Everything seems to have gone back to normal.

Spent about 4 hours waiting in line at school just to straighten out my registration issues. There was two stops, first was to see the coordinator of my program which took about 1.5 hour to 2 hours. Got her permission to go register, so off to the second line. The second line was even worst. I see that there were two staff working to correct people's time table or other issues. 1 of them keep walking off to who knows where, comes back site for about 2 minutes, and walks off again. This line took like forever to get to me. As of now, I been standing for about 3-4 hours. So when its finally my turn, the lady there took off on a snack break (OMG). Finally after another half hour, she comes back. And I handed her my form and she completes in less then a minute...WTF they should have let me go first.

Remember the racket that I ordered online couple weeks back. Well the bad news is that the string lasted 1 and a half day and it broke. Reasons being that racket was made for front court, with a high tension on the strings for better control. But you know me, I play everywhere on the court, mostly on the back court. And because of that the high tensioned string snapped on the second day of ACTUALLY using it. The good news is that I have brought it to Sport Chek to get it restrung. I hope this time, the frame is fine.

Well, I just got home and haven't ate anything yet, so I'll end it off here. GOT TO GET SOMETHING TO EAT!!!

WTF...GEORGE BROWN JUST FXXXED ME OVER

2010-01-07T17:29:00.003-05:00

So, as most of you have began your new semester, I am still sitting at home doing virtually nothing until the 11th. Today I went on the the George Brown site and was about to look at my time table for my new semester. Given that I registered for the coming semester during November. But when I was looking for my time table today, it wasn't there. So I went to the registration section and BOOM. I got booted out of the section that I registered for. So that is why there is no time table.

So I tried to register again, but then when I confirmed the section that I have choose, they give me a message saying "Sorry, the section that you have choose is full, please select another section..." Then I back page to the section selection, there was only one and it is the one that says to be full...So what now, I can't register, all sections are full.

WHAT A WONDERFUL THING TO START THE NEW YEAR!!!

What Happened Today

2009-12-12T17:40:00.003-05:00

So today is Saturday, as usual I went to badminton. Since its exam weeks for most people, there was only Ming and I. Originally I booked a court for badminton at 12 noon. When I got there there was no courts available. So I met up with Ming and we walked around Woodside Mall for about 35 minutes. Then we headed back to the court, and there was on available. At this time, the guy that usually takes the money isn't here. So we just played until the so call "Drop-In courts" opens.

Ming and I played for about 1 hour and 15 minutes. For some reason, there was no one going around asking the other players to pay for the drop-in fee, which is $5 per person. So when we are done playing, we just left.

I call this play and run (霸王球) instead of eat and run LOL.

Also tested my brand new racket today. It was a little weird on the first try cause it too damn light, but it does give it more control due to the lightness. As they say, new things needs to be broken in.

One last thing to Tony, Jonathan, and Daniel, Ming and I broke two shuttles. So we need to get some new ones soon.

I AM EXTREMELY HAPPY TODAY :) :D :P

2009-12-10T15:28:00.003-05:00

OH YEAH. My new badminton has just arrive at my place. This is the most that I have spent on a single item. The racket is awesome in a flamy red colour. It is super light, less the a toothpaste I think.
The awesome thing about this is that I ordered last night at around 7 pm, and it arrived this morning at 11 am. I am shocked that it got here so fast, gotta give the thumbs up to Purolator.

Second happy thing is I am done school. Just one more tiny presentation to go. Really looking forward to having some fun this Christmas.

過了超無聊的一周

2009-12-06T00:50:00.003-05:00

This time of the year is what I hate the most of all times. When the weather gets colder and colder. Exams piling up for me and my friends. This entire week I have spent most of it at home except for one day which I was at school doing presentations. All these free time has made me realized that I hate free times. Especially when I am doing nothing fun or exciting at home. .

I have created a daily and weekly routine for myself since the beginning of this year. Get up before 1 pm. Checks email, check online course material, surf the web for awhile. Then I watch The O.C at 1 pm. The O.C is actually pretty funny and good. After The O.C, I will watch some cartoon on YTV. I mostly enjoy watching Back at the Barnyard, its about these talking farm animal doing human stuff while hiding from people. Then grab some lunch and continue watching CSI (Which ever one is on). At 7 I begin to make dinner, eat it, watch TV / On Computer, then bed time. And this practically runs through Sunday through Wednesday and Friday. For Thursday I go to school for group projects. And on Saturday I usually spend hanging out with friends, chatting, playing badminton, and having dinner.

This week was even worst then the usual weeks. My favourite activity of the week didn't happen. Friends was either working, not in Toronto, studying or can't be found. So I ended up spending my one and only good day doing the same things I usually do at home.

From all those time at home, I realized how boring my life is really. Nothing new or exciting has happen in my life for a long time. Excluding parties or event that I went to. Those were fun and all, but they only happen like once or twice a year. And as my routine has been on for a considerably long time, I don't really find anything else besides badminton being fun. Maybe I need to get out more, but only by myself would still be the same. What are some things I find fun when I am out...Well dinner is all the same I guess, just the food that I eat is different. Karaoke is fun, but that doesn't happen everyday. Of all, I realized that I hate being by myself.

Finally Satisfied

2009-12-02T03:22:00.000-05:00

Finally satisfied with the looks of my blog. Added some of my favourite songs from my favourite singer Jay Chou. Also some more info about me is added on the side bars.

Come to think of it, I nearly spent an entire day working on my blog. Hm...Tony and the others might be true, this blog thing is addictive :).

I hope that I always have something to write about when I am doing nothing at home.

Well, as you can see the time of this post, its pretty late (Only for me, Eve can stay up all night). Night ppl.

WHAT THE...How come my clock says 3:20 am, and my post time says 12:20.

I Hope this is TRUE

2009-12-01T23:14:00.000-05:00

Once again I have heard a really great and old song by Jordan Chan. It's call "神啊救救我". Meaning God please help me. The story of this song is that the main character has been alone for his entire live and is still believing that God will bless him that he will find love.

上帝会保佑我的爱情总会来的 God will bless me, Love will always come
我在梦中一切都有可惜现实呀 I have everything in my dreams, but the reality
常常是相反的 is always the reverse
爱她的男人很多那我又算什么 Many men loves her, so what am I?
我在雨中喝着悶酒反正幸福呀 I drink boring beer in the rain, Anyways Happyness
对我是奢侈的 is like a luxury to me (Can't be attain I think)
心里太清楚了其实她不爱我 I know it in my heart clearly, she doesn't love me
奇怪地球上怎么会没有人看上我 Weird, how come there's no one on Earth that loves me
神啊救救我吧 Ah God, please help me
一把年纪了一个爱人都没有 I don't even have 1 lover at this old age
孤独是可怜的如果没有爱过 Lonely is pitiful, if you haven't love before
人生是黑白的 Your life is like black and white
神啊救救我吧 Ah God, Please help me
一个人晃了半辈子了为什么 I have been alone for half of my life, why
我这样的男人哪就快要绝种 I am the kinda of man that is almost going to extinct
她呢又在哪儿 Where is she?
上帝会保佑我的………… God will bless me...

Hm...this is my second time translating lyric from Chinese to English, I am actually not bad at this.

I believe that many people has thought about this at least once. But I do believe that there is always an Yin for my Yang.

SON OF A BEEEEEP

2009-12-01T22:53:00.000-05:00

WTF, I am beginning to hate ONLINE COURSES after this semester. Basically all of my course for this semester are online. This was such a bad idea, I feel like I have been even more ripped off of my tuition money now, which I though it was impossible to top already.

Here's what happen today. One of my online course is a Research Evaluation class, the main purpose of this is to learn how to hyperlink source out from a wiki. This course consist of 10 quiz (40%) (Which I completed in 1 night), and 4 assignments (10%, 10%, 20%, 20%). So here's the thing, I kinda procrastinated until 3 days before the deadline (NOON of DECEMBER 1 TODAY). But I did completed all my assignment. When I was about to post my assignments on the this wiki that the prof created. I found that I was able to post all but one of the 10% assignment. That wiki was close off. So I email the prof and I got an auto reply message. It says that he has started to making everyone's assignments, he has about 150 email from students asking for help with last minute problem about posting or what not, and if he doesn't get to my email, and the deadline has passed, then I am out of luck, then he also said that he doesn't accept assignment through email attachments. So Great, I am out 10% of my overall mark because he started marking earlier. And there won't be any compensations. SO...ONCE AGAIN THE TITLE OF THIS BLOG!!!

NEW TITLE FOR MY BLOG

2009-12-01T22:39:00.000-05:00

Looking at the titles of my friend's blog, I felt that the title "Jay Xu" was really boring. So I decided to come up with a new one. A title that means something. So I came up with "面具后的秘密...". This actually comes from an inspiration of the movie / song "不能說的秘密" which staring Jay Chou and sang by Jay Chou. The second part is from the anime Bleach (The mask that Ichigo wears.

Another main reason that I came up with this title is that I felt as I have two faces. When I meet new people I portraits the image of being quiet and hard working. But when I am around my closest friends, I tend to be the most active and but lazy one when it comes to school work. Which this made me wonder, who is the real me.

I truly believe that people will have two faces, some might have even more. I believe that people has 4 faces.
1) At work
2) With Friends
3) With Lover Ones
4) When you are alone

These faces are like masks. One would put on a mask to hide their true identity. But how do one distinguish which is the real one?...

Buy or Not

2009-11-16T22:21:00.000-05:00

My racket is getting old, so I have started to look for new rackets to buy. I found this really great racket for about 100 dollars.

http://www.sweatband.com/head-lite-30-badminton-racket.html?utm_campaign=KSB

This is actually the best racket I have seen, regarding the weight and the looks. And for 100 dollar is pretty low compared to other rackets that I have seen. But the only thing that I am worried about is that the racket will be shipped another country. I wonder if I should buy it...

THE ONLY THING THAT I AM GOOD AT

2009-11-16T19:47:00.000-05:00

Most people are good at a lot of thing; like being good at math, computer science and programming, cooking. But when someone asks me what I am good at, all I can say is badminton because I am "OK" in everything else. So I consider badminton to be something that I am actually good at.

I fell in love with badminton the very first time I played while I was in grade 4. After that, I have played badminton every chance that I can. Whether its playing in a friend's backyard or playing it during school class like physed. I have improved dramatically since the first time I have played. In my last year of high school, I even took racket sport (A grade 10 gym class) just to play badminton, I didn't even cared if I didn't get a credit for it. That's because I have already taken a grade 10 gym before and I have already completed all my necessary credits.

I sometime wish that I can relive my Grade 8 - 12 again. This is because then I can teach those cocky bastard a thing or two about badminton. And maybe played a decent game with my Grade 8 teacher. I fantasies about reliving my life a lot, so this might be a be weird. HAHAHA.

Back to present. I still am in love with badminton. And I play it every Saturday with my friends. WE usually booked a court and played for two hours. Usually 4 people, sometimes 5. Just to be cocky, I would said that I am the best of the 5. Not jsut based on skill lvls. I based on couple of things; like the enthusiasm toward badminton, the will to improve in badminton, energy lvls, and the enjoyment of badminton. Speaking the truth, if you don't feel excited toward playing badminton, then there isn't a point in playing it. The will to improve in your game is also important, I see a lot of beginning lvl player playing each week, but they seen to have not improved at all. Energy lvl is really important in badminton, for me I can play for like 2-3 hours non stop with water breaks. The most important thing for me is the enjoyment of badminton. I enjoy badminton very much, so no matter if I win or lose the game, the most important thing is the enjoyment.

I rather play a challenging game then winning an easy game. Sometime this happens during my Saturday games when my friends are dead tired and I am still filled with energy. Right now I am trying to help my friends improve their lvl of plays so that I can have more of an exciting game every single time we played.

This Brings me Back

2009-11-16T17:21:00.000-05:00

Here I was watching Music videos on Youtube, and I came across a really old song that I used to listen back in high school. The song is call 一句到尾 by Jordan Chan. The story behind this song is that a guy has been in love with this girl, but the girl doesn't know. Here is the chorus of the song,

圍繞身邊已600天　你喜歡過我60秒嗎
　還期望知道這段相處裡　被我暗戀得快樂嗎
　如果喜歡你是笑話　你都有開心過60秒嗎
　旁人話總會有日感化你
　待你這麼好有用嗎　還有用嗎
　而你默然　還要問嗎

Translation: I hope I did this right.

I circle your life for 600 days, have you liked me for 60 seconds?
I want to know the time we known each other, did you enjoy it?
If liking you is a joke, were you happy for 60 seconds?
People around me always said that there will be a day I move(emotionally) you.
Is there a point treating you this good? Whats the point?
You are silent, do I have to ask?

This song, the lyric really brought back some memories of high school. And the sad thing is that the lyric seems to be written by me or about what I went through in high school.

Grade 9, the first time I saw her was in the hall way. People were rushing to the next class, in that crowd of people, I saw her. She caught my attention instantly, but I don't know why. And I didn't even know her name until grade 10.

Grade 10, she was in my class. I can't believe that she and I are in the same class. Another unbelievable thing was that she was in three of my classes for that year. We became friends in grade 10. At that time, I wasn't sure if its love or not. All I know is I like being around her and seeing her smile and acting crazy all the time.

Grade 11, this year she wasn't in any of my classes. But her locker were close to one of my class. So I would walk to class early each day hoping to run into her. Some days I see her, some days I don't.

Grad 12, YES she in my class again.

Basically what it come down to is that I have been around her life for 600 days, but I didn't tell her and she doesn't know anything. The feeling comes back every time i listen to 一句到尾. But we haven't seen or talked to each other after grade 12. Until two weeks ago, I ran into her the day before my Birthday. For me it was like an indirect gift from her. It was nice seeing her again, at least she remember me. :)